Man...

Tell me, how can you believe something if the evidence is not relevant???
HOW?

(Ironically this has nothing to do with religion, but emotion)

I cannot say how many hours I have sat on the stairs, or in the bamboo room contemplating this. I sit, and the same thoughts keep repeating themselve in my head. Each time it goes around, the more I hurt.
I hide behind a mask of "I'm ok" and "Nothing, I'm just thinking."
But that is not in the essance all false. Infact, at that time, I was in the process of thinking. But it's not thinking any longer when your answer is still the two you had originally thought to deside between.

A part of me thinks of how self centered I really am with my constant downing of self pity. As pathetic as it is, I feel as if it is not under good reasons. My whole philosophy is the fact that Life goes on, although this is contradiction all that. I mean, this consists the future, and I know time is flying beside me. DO I REALLY WANT TO WATCH IT AS I WAIT FOR THIS?

And infact I almost had made up my desition, accept I didn't.
Why?



On a different note, I think I am going to take a year off of Boarding school and go to public school. While doing so, I think I shall apply to Dublin (shit man... ) for my Junior year. I think you can have cars on campus.
But the public school may be bow, not Manchester.